Things sound different

A year ago today I was stressed about everything. My relationship was weird, I was being 'cyber stalked' and my hair was falling out, even more then usual, and I didn't feel good at all. Everything all kind of 'felt' weird. I mean we were good at making our lives LOOK great. It was like we had perfected this lie that we were willing to keep up with.

I was IN LOVE with someone who was still unsure of what they wanted out of life.

Looking back now its insane to see the transformation from what I thought I knew into what I know now. Looking back I was blind to many of the things happening around me. I was also blind to what I was feeling. I was heartbroken over so many things happening around me and I wasn't dealing with it at all. Instead I was hiding in this 'idea' of the perfect relationship. So I hid and ignored who I am to be who I was.

So here is my current song, I can't remember if I posted this song on here or on my Facebook but I am posting the lyrics here and then the video. I LOVE this song and the words are so strong and meaningful and totally mean something to me.

I kept waiting on a reason
And a call that never came
No I never, saw it comin'
Somethin' in you
Must have changed

All the words unspoken
Promises broken
I cried for so long.
Wasted too much time
Should have seen the signs.
Now I know, just what went wrong

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

All the nights we spent just talkin'
Of the things we wanted out of life (out of life)
Makin' plans and dreams together
I wish I'd seen I was just too blind

My heart was open
Exposed and hoping
For you to lay it on the line
But in the end it seemed
There was no room for me
Still I tried, to change your mind.

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

Ohhh, I don't need you
I don't need you anymore

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

I don't need you
I don't need you anymore