Sunday, June 1, 2014

You just don't know

I hate when people decide to hate you without having all the facts. I am so done with it. Hate to tell you but I am a kind, caring, loving woman who puts those she loves before herself. EVEN WHEN those people do not do the same. Here is the thing. I love Jordan. She is my everything. What doesn't come up with my daughter is all the things that happened when I was a teenager. A TEENAGER. All teenagers make mistakes, sorry bro it happens. What also happens when you are a teen is you will blindly follow and trust people when you shouldn't. I made that mistake. ONCE.

Yeah and sadly that mistake follows me through everything I do. What isn't fair is people who go LOOKING for my PAST mistakes and blindly judge me on those items without even trying to find out WHAT HAPPENED. Hey I have an idea why aren't you looking deeper? You know try and find other things that happened to me. Guess what one mistake that happened FOURTEEN YEARS AGO was never repeated and WILL NOT be repeated because those kinds of people I was letting into my life are no longer welcome near me. Seriously FOURTEEN YEARS AGO and you feel the need to think I am the same person I was. Lets be honest other than the whole 'blindly helping people out when I know I shouldn't' and the whole 'letting anyone into my life' has changed but the whole 'being a great person because I can' thing has stuck around. So get off of your not earned high horse and learn to treat people with respect.

I pay my bills. I take care of my child. I care for my man as BEST AS I CAN. I don't drink but once a month at this rate and well I rarely get 'drunk.' I NEVER do drugs. I don't get pregnant to keep men. I am clean. I work my ass off. I am a GREAT cook. I am also a wonderful baker. I attend church and have made beautiful friendships there. I volunteer at as many events as I can and I go out of my way to let others know I love them.

My down falls, I am HIGHLY emotional. My past does get in the way of my working from time to time. My health has been on a steady decline, so much so that my Doctor keeps doing blood draws to find hints and clues as to why. I get offended at the smallest issues. I take next to everything personally but would NEVER say so. I keep things to myself and only, at this rate, two or three people really know the real me.

So if you aren't in the pictures I am about to post you have NO RIGHT to question me or my past because these people don't and they are my whole world.